please hold me

It’s a long time ago.. But I have a lot to tell.
So, to put my story in a nutshell: I’m in love with my best friend. Remember?
Okay, so now it’s over between him and my best girlfriend, he’s now three weeks single I guess.. But that doesn’t matter. When it was over, he came to me, crying, calling, texting.. I was always there for him and I’d do anything he wanted! I thought he liked that.

But then we had a schooltrip to London for two days, and these two days he was acting like a real asshole to me. He ignored me, doesn’t spoke to me and so on. And when I asked him what was wrong, he just said ‘nothing’.
A few days later, he texted me he’s sorry for his behaviour and I forgave him.. Yes, what could I do? :)

So we were close again, although I have to admit that something was changed. I still don’t know what changed, but it was something. And now, he’s texting and dating another girl, he always talks about HER and SHE is all that matters to him I suppose. So, when he talked to me it was about her and about going out with her. He texted me he had an amazing night with her! But, WHY DOES HE DO THAT?

A friend of mine, suggested that I have to ignore him for a week or something, and that he will come to me and asks me what he’d done? or what’s wrong? But I’m ignoring him for 4 days now, and it’s like he doesn’t care at all. Why should he? He has so many girlfriends, and now there’s this girl he’s dating.. So why should he?

When I think of those good old times, when he said that he’ll be always there for me, no matter what or when.. I can’t do this anymore. I don’t know what to do, and I’m afraid of losing him forever.

And now I started crying again.. nice :)

Sweet tumblrs, my head is a mess! I’am a mess now!

Love sucks.

two weeks holiday,
two weeks not seeing him
two weeks they can do everything together
two weeks crying..